Blog Archives

Divination: A Gateway to Psycho-Spiritual Healing

Standard


This practice is a conversation. 

Everyday, I ask, “what is the energy I need today in order to manifest my destiny today?” Every day, the universe responds. I am responsible for reading the energy in the ways that will allow me to work with it–even when it’s hard. 

This practice is a meditation. 

Meditation is an ancient practice prominent in spiritual and religious traditions throughout the world. It brings the practitioner into the presence of their own divine, into conversation with the voice of god. Whether you believe that voice is only within or only without doesn’t really matter. Whether you think that’s one voice or many voices, it doesn’t really matter. What matters is that you are conversing with the divine through your own being. 

This practice is divination. 

Throughout human history, we humans have been divining–engaging in practices that connect us to that which is greater inside of ourselves and outside of ourselves. We have used bones, shells, sticks, nuts, seeds, leaves, cards, rocks, and many other objects to facilitate readings of the world, readings of the energy that we inhabit and the energy that inhabits each of us. Divination is a tool. Divination is not a religion–though many religions have and use divination practices that are specific to their own spiritual values and orientations. 

Having gone through Catholic school for 12 years, I was taught that divination is evil, a work of the Devil (which, of course, presumes that the devil is always bad, which is a belief antithetical to my spiritual foundation now). Like all powerful spiritual gifts, divination practices must be respected as tools through which to encounter the divine. Given the broad array of energies present in holistic divination systems, there is plenty of space for those with beliefs of all kinds. There is plenty of space to interpret the energies that present themselves in ways that align with and make sense in one’s own life. 

As above, so below. As without, so within. I don’t engage with the Tarot and astrology as ways of trying to predict the future. Rather, I work with them to find my own understanding of myself and the world and to help you find yours. I work with them to come into my own truth, and to help you come into yours. I use them to understand the energies that are present in my life and in yours and how best to interact with them. I wish the people I trusted when I first felt drawn to these ideas had been able to explain to me the beauty of these gifts–both the tools themselves and gifts they develop within the practitioner. I wish I hadn’t been left in fear by people who denounced these practices as evil. 

Look–there is evil in this world and there is dark energy. And that energy can and does come into any religion, any church, any spiritual practice. We are all dealt demons and I have experienced exorcisms in many manifestations. Those questionable figures that remain (both internally and externally) might be demons. But they are also my angels. They bring out the best in me–whether they are trying or not–by challenging me to be my absolute best and most confident self. For better or for worse, these people, energies and spirits continue to work this jagged soul into a refined river rock. And I am grateful for their presence in my life.

If you are interested in receiving a Tarot reading or a reading of your astrological chart, please contact me via email at HilaryB130@gmail.com or via Social Media @HilaryB130.

Soul Technology: A Guide to the Gemini New Moon

Standard


Today, the Moon rebirths herself in Gemini. This year’s New Moons have felt intense … this one feels no different. Today’s New Moon feels strong on communication and information gathering—something that often comes up with Gemini and its ruler, Mercury—communication conduit and technological Trickster. Gemini, as the Third House of the Zodiac, represents both how we gather information in our everyday lives and how we communicate the information we gather. The house of your chart inhabited by Gemini represents where these activities tend to occur. This placement can offer insight into or reminders of how you learned as a child in your unstructured play time. With the Moon in this sign, returning to or recalling this aspect of your life might offer you comfort and help you to move through a block that you didn’t even know was there.

This New Moon is calling us to be practical. Cut the bullshit. Know what you want. Communicate what you want—to yourself, to the universe, and to another person if that’s something you feel comfortable doing and to which you have access. This isn’t a great week to make major decisions. And yet, it’s also a good weekend to avoid stagnation. Much like the week of the Scorpio Full Moon, you could experience some brain fog or just general confusion/indecision under the Mercurial influence. That is just Gemini being Gemini. The twins … they don’t have to be either/or. They can be in conversation with each other and when they are, they possess endless possibilities.

This is a great week to gather information. Note everything that comes your way. Write it down if you can. Know your options. As a researcher by trade, I can vouch for the fact that when data is collected well, it speaks for itself. Collect the data. Sit with it. Write it out. Draw it out. Dance it out. Play it out. Sing it out. However you want to communicate it, however you feel it being communicated to you, let it come. Read it, look at it, listen to it over and over again. At the end of the weekend, as the Moon starts to grow and reveal her light, let it speak for itself. And then, speak for yourself.

Mercury rules technology, but this new moon is calling us to take a break from digital technology and tune in to soul technology. Digital technology offers data to be collected. But my sense is that isn’t the kind of data wanting to be collected in this lunation cycle. I have heard people say that we have knowledge at the tips of our fingertips—referring to the internet and the devices with which we access it. That statement is true—but this lunation is calling us to a different kind of knowledge, one that can’t be accessed from our devices. This knowledge isn’t at our fingertips, it is in our fingertips, because we hold knowledge of the entire universe in our bodies. The knowledge of all times is available in our spirits and hearts—many of which have been present in all times. This is the knowledge this New Moon wants us to access—the truth of and in our spirits and hearts. It’s a bit risky for Gemini, I’d say, to go this deep. But, then again, Mercury is the Trickster, so you never know what you’re going to get. And he is communicating with Sagittarius, the hunter who sometimes hunts for the hearts and minds of those willing to surrender to something greater. At the same time, Pluto (in Capricorn) and Venus (in Aries) are in a challenging aspect, meaning that we will be given opportunities to plough the depths of our own sense of self-worth, abundance, and love. Reach for bodily knowledge this week and this weekend. Reach for the knowledge and information that can only be accessed by sitting with yourself. Gemini is communication, but also divination and divination is simply communication with the divine—the divine inside of each of us as well as the divine that is bigger than all of us.

Use forms of personal communication you need in order to access this divine data. Talk with a trusted friend—even if that friend is you. Sing. Write. Make music. Dance. Speak. Make art. As Gemini represents the Third House of the Zodiac, look to your Third House to provide keys to the forms of communication that will help you to receive the information you need to make the important decisions you face right now, because right now, there are important decisions to make. You probably know the decisions you’ll face over the next couple of weeks if you’re not already facing them. Even if you don’t have a firm grasp on the particulars, you probably know which areas of your life they’ll inhabit. As I mentioned earlier, this isn’t necessarily the best week to make decisions. But whether it’s this week or in the next couple of weeks, make the decisions you have to make quickly—that’s the Gemini way. Move quickly. You will soon have all of the information you need. This is not the time to meander into Ninth House tactics (one of my fortes). Let the data speak. Don’t spend too much time contemplating. If something triggers you, move away from it. Don’t ask why. Don’t figure out how to move through it. Just move away. You’re being triggered by the things that are triggering you right now for a reason. Don’t be guilted into taking a path that doesn’t feel right – not by anyone, especially not by yourself and the cacophonous chorus in your head.

The seeds you plant during this New Moon will come to fruition at the corresponding Gemini Full Moon six months from now. Yet, the seeds you plant at this New Moon will also affect strongly your experience with the upcoming Full Moon in Sagittarius. Gemini and Sagittarius exist on the same axis. Gemini wants to move broadly and collect data. Sagittarius goes the distance, weaving all that data tightly into a single thread, one straight arrow moving toward your target of choice. The two signs are opposed, but they can work together if we let them. Let them. New Moon blessings. 🙏🏼

If you would like further information about  how this lunation affects you personally according to your chart, please contact me about a personal reading at HilaryB130@gmail.com or via social media at @HilaryB130.

Destiny & the Deepest Part of Me

Standard


Astrological charts are wheels in which the stars and planets are dispersed with the appearance that the Earth is at the center. It appears that everything is revolving around us, but of course, it’s not. In a chart, a person’s soul is at the center of the wheel and it is my perspective that knowing one’s chart offers insight into how to navigate that center, how to find that center. I don’t think it’s necessary to remain in the center at all times. I’m not convinced that we’re here in these bodies not to experience the possible shifts and flows that can come from embodying these drives—as intense and chaotic as they can be. We all have every energy of the zodiac located in our charts in unique placements for a reason. Nonetheless, I have found that knowing my center and being able to feel into that center allows me to navigate the energies in my chart more effectively, to actually have control over my own energy, to exist fully in all of the power that resides in my mind, body, and spirit.

Every day, there are transits in an astrological chart. Every day, the Sun moves one degree in your chart. Certain transits are celebrated and emphasized—a Solar Return (aka your birthday), a Lunar Return, a Venus Return, a Saturn Return (not so much celebrated as feared). Similarly, certain points of a chart are emphasized—like the Ascendant and the Midheaven. The Midheaven, or Medium Coeli, is one of the most important points in a chart. It is the ceiling, the Sun’s highest point in the sky the day you were born. It represents Noon. It represents your highest achievement in this life. By achievement, I refer to how you’re known, your destiny, the legacy you will leave in this world. For most people, this point is located in their 10th House of Career. In traditional Hellenistic Astrology, however, whole sign houses make it possible for this point to be located in the 9th or 11th House. I use whole sign houses in my practice and, as a result, I tend to work a lot with axes throughout the chart. The Midheaven is part of an axis—an axis that I refer to as the Axis of Destiny. An axis implies that there is another point at the other end of the Midheaven … and, there is. This point is called the Imam Ceoli (IC) or the Nadir. Imam Coeli means the bottom of the sky—literally, the bottom of the chart. This point is referenced regularly, but rarely discussed—partially because it is so deep that it can be invisible to a person in themself, let alone to other people.

In my own life and in my practice, I have found that exploring the depths of the IC is necessary to understand how to reach the Midheaven. How can a tree grow if it has no roots? It can’t … and it can be a confusing part of a chart. The Sun has also been transiting my IC over the past week, as it does each year. Year in and year out, I find this transit to be one of the most difficult of the year—perhaps because it falls in my chart on the Taurus/Scorpio axis. I will write more about this axis in my post about the Full Moon in Scorpio, due to grace us with its presence tomorrow.

I’m not even sure how to write about this place, this space inside of me, my IC. My IC is in Taurus—fixed Earth—and as this point is transited, my whole being wants to be rooted in the Earth – like being at the beach with my whole body buried except for my head. It’s not so much about being buried, though, as it is about wanting and needing to be held in all of the ways in which a person can be held—physically, intellectually, emotionally, spiritually. Not just touched, but held, and held by something and someone whose energy is solid, grounded, slow, steady, someone who doesn’t let go or, at least, who doesn’t let go quickly. It is a desire to be held by someone who or something that holds just to hold, not expecting anything, not looking for anything in return, not wanting to possess, not looking for an association externally granted. I am looking for the Earth, who simply holds the roots of a plant, of a tree, so it can grow. The Earth’s job is to be fertile, to be a space in which something can grow. Its only responsibility is to be moist, nutrient dense, and at this time of the year, warm. Whether something grows or doesn’t is none of its business, none of its responsibility, none of its concern, comes as neither a benefit nor a detriment. And yet, it holds, it cradles, it nurtures life.

This thing that I want every year at this time—this is not my destiny. It’s just the deepest part of me. In fact, my destiny is to become something very different. My destiny, in fact, is to let go, to learn how to let go, to transform, to transmutate, to be an alchemist, to penetrate the depths of my own psyche further than I ever thought possible. And when I think I have gone as far as I can go, to go a little further, a little bit deeper. Through this experience of deep exploration into my own psychic landscape, my chart indicates that I am also called to offer other people tools to do the same. That is Scorpio. That is what Scorpio is about. That is what is happening with this Full Moon rising—the psyche is being stirred.

My IC is in my 5th House of love, pleasure, beauty, creativity, leisure, and pleasure, whereas most people’s IC’s are in their 4th House of Home—house, family, ancestry, foundation, roots. This means that where I began is not where I will return. This means that I am meant to become something different than that into which I was born. I am meant to find roots rather than return to them. It means that the deepest parts of me might appear even more invisible than they do with most people unless I know them and illuminate them. It also means that all of the psychic exploration, all of the transformation, transmutation, and penetration can’t happen without that cradle of creativity, without beauty, without love, and without pleasure.

Where is your IC? What do you need to make your destiny a reality? Do you know? Are you ready to go there? To sit still and quietly in the one place where you want to be held where no one can hold you but the earth? But god? But whatever it is that you believe in that is greater than you? It’s a hard one … but it’s one of the most important ones to truly visit. Don’t just let it pass. Let it in … and then, like this Moon is telling us, let it go.

If you are interested in learning more about the IC in your own chart, please contact me for a reading at HilaryB130@gmail.com or via Social Media @HilaryB130.