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Divination: A Gateway to Psycho-Spiritual Healing

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This practice is a conversation. 

Everyday, I ask, “what is the energy I need today in order to manifest my destiny today?” Every day, the universe responds. I am responsible for reading the energy in the ways that will allow me to work with it–even when it’s hard. 

This practice is a meditation. 

Meditation is an ancient practice prominent in spiritual and religious traditions throughout the world. It brings the practitioner into the presence of their own divine, into conversation with the voice of god. Whether you believe that voice is only within or only without doesn’t really matter. Whether you think that’s one voice or many voices, it doesn’t really matter. What matters is that you are conversing with the divine through your own being. 

This practice is divination. 

Throughout human history, we humans have been divining–engaging in practices that connect us to that which is greater inside of ourselves and outside of ourselves. We have used bones, shells, sticks, nuts, seeds, leaves, cards, rocks, and many other objects to facilitate readings of the world, readings of the energy that we inhabit and the energy that inhabits each of us. Divination is a tool. Divination is not a religion–though many religions have and use divination practices that are specific to their own spiritual values and orientations. 

Having gone through Catholic school for 12 years, I was taught that divination is evil, a work of the Devil (which, of course, presumes that the devil is always bad, which is a belief antithetical to my spiritual foundation now). Like all powerful spiritual gifts, divination practices must be respected as tools through which to encounter the divine. Given the broad array of energies present in holistic divination systems, there is plenty of space for those with beliefs of all kinds. There is plenty of space to interpret the energies that present themselves in ways that align with and make sense in one’s own life. 

As above, so below. As without, so within. I don’t engage with the Tarot and astrology as ways of trying to predict the future. Rather, I work with them to find my own understanding of myself and the world and to help you find yours. I work with them to come into my own truth, and to help you come into yours. I use them to understand the energies that are present in my life and in yours and how best to interact with them. I wish the people I trusted when I first felt drawn to these ideas had been able to explain to me the beauty of these gifts–both the tools themselves and gifts they develop within the practitioner. I wish I hadn’t been left in fear by people who denounced these practices as evil. 

Look–there is evil in this world and there is dark energy. And that energy can and does come into any religion, any church, any spiritual practice. We are all dealt demons and I have experienced exorcisms in many manifestations. Those questionable figures that remain (both internally and externally) might be demons. But they are also my angels. They bring out the best in me–whether they are trying or not–by challenging me to be my absolute best and most confident self. For better or for worse, these people, energies and spirits continue to work this jagged soul into a refined river rock. And I am grateful for their presence in my life.

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Buss Out the Pruning Shears: A Brief Guide to Uranus Trine Saturn

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Change.

Change is something that is desired, welcomed, and feared. Other Aquarians out there will know that classic Aquarian feeling—I want change in my life and in the world but embracing actual change is sort of a growing edge (and thankfully, I’m growing). It’s the dawning of the age of Aquarius. Both the call and push for change and the requirement to deal with it when it arrives and in whatever forms it arrives are upon us. This week brings its own form of change as Uranus and Saturn decide to play together nicely. Uranus and Saturn are not necessarily the most likely bed fellows. Saturn builds walls. Uranus breaks them down. Uranus is revolution, rupture, disruption, disorder. Saturn is structure, order, organization, ordination.

I write about my perspective on Saturn frequently—but I think it’s worth repeating. Saturn often gets a bad rap. And, perhaps, rightfully so. After all, Saturn is associated with Patriarchy, with archaic structures that privilege some people over other people based on arbitrary standards such as genetics, race, and gender so that some people can have more than others. But to be honest, I don’t think we need to blame Saturn for that reality—we need to blame ourselves, we need to blame our ancestors. Saturn didn’t create those structures. We did. Saturn didn’t create his story. We did. Nonetheless, the energy is real and that energy is what I work with. According to the Laws of Thermodynamics (if you’re into that sort of thing, if that’s a theory you adhere to), energy cannot be created or destroyed, only transformed. Energy is neither positive nor negative. Energy is shaped, moved, and engaged however we choose.

Saturn’s energy represents the human ability to create structures that support the uniqueness of human lives. Saturn likes organization and structure and he likes it because human beings need some organization and structure in their lives in order to grow. He is not that interested, actually, in what those structures look like. He is very interested, however, in ensuring that they exist. He asks us all the time whether the structures that we use to contain our lives support the work and ways of being to which we feel called. He does not want to impose upon us, he wants to support us. Most of all, he wants to support us supporting ourselves—and if that means giving us a good kick in the ass every once in awhile, so be it.

Uranus, alternatively, really loves just breaking shit for no reason. He loves to disrupt the status quo. He wants revolution and he wants it now. He says, “I’m sorry – are you comfortable? Lemme help you with that.” And WAPS! HITS you with something that will put you in your place more quickly than you can catch your breath. Often, that thing is the truth. He rules Aquarius. Other people with strong Aquarian energy will know that we like the truth. We seek the truth. We are good at disrupting with the truth—often unintentionally, sometimes problematically. After all, none of us is prepared for the whole truth all the time.

Given the realities of these energies, I guess it’s not hard to see how the two, despite their differences, could actually have quite a good time together nudging the world along—one creating blocks, the other breaking down walls. When Saturn and Uranus get along, they offer us opportunities to break down what we don’t need, what we don’t want, what isn’t serving us and, at the same time, to build something new that supports us. They support emerging structures. They might give you a little advance on building that new house or a couple new clients in your new business or the confidence to go on a date while your heart is mending from the worst breakup ever. How this aspect affects your life is based upon both the areas of your life (houses) and energies (signs) that they are transiting and the houses and signs in which they exist in your natal chart. But given that their trine (a positive and easy relationship in astrological terms) exists in Sagittarius and Aries, there will be certain overtones that will resonate with a lot of people.

Saturn is in Sagittarius. Sagittarius, ruled by Jupiter, is the 9th sign of the Zodiac. Sagittarius and the 9th House represent theory, philosophy, spirituality, publishing, higher education, formal research, distant travel—essentially, all forms of exploration, including physical, emotional, spiritual, or intellectual. Sagittarius is a warrior and an explorer with a purpose, a vision, a single direction, a one-track mind. Jupiter (Sagittarius’ ruler) expands, while Saturn (currently transiting Sagittarius) contracts–so they certainly exist in tension with one another. But, in certain situations, tension can also be balance. Uranus is in Aries. Aries, ruled by Mars, is the 1st House of the Zodiac. Aries and the 1st House represent our identities in the world, how we present ourselves to the world, the healthy ego–the part of us that jumps up and says, “Here I am!” Mars is quintessential (healthy) masculine energy—drive, passion, anger, fearlessness, action, desire. So, as you can imagine, Uranus and Mars have a lot of fun – although, they can be a bit destructive together … which is where a beneficial relationship with Saturn can actually help by keeping that energy contained.

So, what does this all mean?

In astrological terms, this time is asking us to re-imagine the structures that serve as the containers for our lives, our tribes/families, our communities, our nations, and our world (however any one person might go about defining any of those things). Structures that once served the world no longer serve the world or individuals. Different people have very different experiences, but many are still experiencing the same phenomena. Philosophies and theories that once served us no longer serve us. With this combination of energies, the roots of these philosophies are not being eliminated, they are not being pulled up and plouged back into the ground. Rather, we are pruning them back–almost to the ground–so that they might grow fruit. A lot of these structures haven’t been pruned ever or in a long time. They need some pruning, they need to be cut back so that they can grow better, produce more fruit, feed more people. This is true of structures that might seem more obvious, such as governments, religions and religious/spiritual structures and systems, family structures, marriage, etc. It is also true, however, of our personal narratives, habits, tendencies, and values.

Are your values changing? Are the philosophies that guide your life changing? If so, how? Do you need a new narrative? Are you the one preventing yourself from finding or answering your calling? Is your identity changing? Is the way you present yourself in the world shifting? Do you feel called to a new and/or different sort of role than the one you’ve been embodying over the past several years? If so, don’t be afraid of that role. Don’t be afraid to shift your philosophy, to change your thinking and to allow that to change how you appear in the world. This is the time … and you are ready!

Learn more about how this aspect and other current transits are affecting your chart and life by receiving a personal reading. I can be contacted at HilaryB130@gmail.com.

“Don’t be afraid, it’s only love”: Preparing for Venus Retrograde in Aries

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Tomorrow, Venus goes retrograde. Venus goes retrograde every 18 months. As she reverses her path, she touches and reminds us of things that happened 9 years previous. Venus holds our love, what feels like love, beauty, our sense of beauty, abundance, how and where we find abundance, how we get paid – financially and emotionally, jealousy, vanity, and issues of self-worth. She is receptive. She craves connection. She rules Taurus and Libra–though she manifests in these signs in different ways … but that is a topic for another day. Because, now, Venus is in Aries. As she reverses direction, she will also spend a couple of weeks in Pisces–her most favorite place to be and where she is loved most. So what does this mean?

Venus is one aspect of the feminine energy that appears in each of our charts. To clarify, when I discuss feminine and masculine energy, I am not referring to gender, but to energetic archetypes that we all possess to varying degrees (which is why gender is fluid). Relationships between the energies of planets and signs in our charts are much like relationships between the energies of individuals. I want to emphasize that astrological events play out in each person’s life in a totally unique way. No two people will have exactly the same experience because no two people have exactly the same chart–but there are some similar themes that might arise for many people based on the energy of a planet, the sign it is transiting, that sign’s ruler, and that sign’s House of the Zodiac.

Aries is the first sign of the Zodiac. Your chart indicates which house is your First House, but since Aries is the First House of the Zodiac, it represents a little First House energy for each of us. The First House of the Zodiac is the House of Self–a person’s identity, how a person appears in the world. Typically, the characteristics of the sign of one’s First House demonstrate how other people perceive them in the world, whereas the Sun represents their true identity. Aries energy is the energy that shifts consciousness, allows birth to happen, flowers to bloom, butterflies to bust out of cocoons. Aries energy busts through portals. It can push through anything. It is fire, it is explosive, it ignites, it initiates, and it is ruled by Mars. It is passion, desire, power, and control. Aries is all man–pure masculine energy. So what does it man for Venus to be in Aries? To be moving back through Mars’ house?

Venus and Mars are considered the lovers of the heavens … but that doesn’t mean that Venus loves being in Mars’ house. Aries is a man house. There’s not always toilet paper. There’s no kitchen table. The dish selection is questionable (except for bar ware–especially beer and shot glasses) and the only thing guaranteed to be in the refrigerator is leftover pizza and craft beer. The furniture is comfy, though the space can be a bit dark … it lacks that “feminine touch” … so when Venus walks in Aries with her bag of tricks, she is like, “oh no!” She GIVES Mars’ house her feminine touch, whether he wants it or not because that is just who she is. She oozes feminine beauty. She leaves a trail of it with her footprints … but that poses a problem because, well, this is MARS’ HOUSE!

If this situation sounds familiar to you, then you will understand what is about to happen in the skies over the next 6 weeks. As above, so below. As without, so within. Each of us will be experiencing this dynamic in part of our lives both externally and internally. Each of us is going to spend the next 6 weeks trying to reconcile these energies. Venus tends to be a bit rowdier in Mars’ house … after all, she has to be if she’s going to stand up to all that aggressive energy. Many of us (regardless of our gender identities) will be reconciling these different pieces of our hearts, minds, and souls—the receptive and the protective, the push and pull of our desires and our destinies. The ultimate goal is to find a dynamic balance between the masculine and feminine in each of us and between each of us. If there is one thing studying Ecology has taught me, it’s that balance is not stasis, but the ability to dance. Learn to dance. In fact, this is a good time to take those dance classes you’ve been considering.

But make sure your dance partner has a style compatible with yours because Venus is the Roman goddess of love and Mars is the Roman god of passion and when they each bring their best selves to each other, when they agree to listen, when they agree to leave their bullshit at the door, when they decide that all they want to do is just dance … miracles can happen. True love is a beautiful dance. The balance of masculine and feminine energies—in partnerships and in individuals—is one of the most beautiful sights to behold. We are meant to surrender to our Selves, to our hearts, to the partnerships (of all kinds) that help us to remain whole. These are transformative times.

Venus’ Retrograde is a review. She’s reviewing and revising these areas of our lives. Venus has her issues (we all do) … but one thing you can place your trust in is that when she loves, she loves HARD! Especially in Aries. Venus is connected to your heart. What does your heart need? What is your heart trying to tell you? Allow her to run her hands over your being and find the place where it hurts most. Then, let her gently satiate your heart’s fissures with her salve until the pain diminishes. There’s no guarantee that pain will disappear fully, but Venus’ Retrograde is like an amazing massage. It mostly feels great and every once in awhile it hurts good … but mostly, it’s exactly what you need. Just don’t forget to drink water because that’s plenty fire. Don’t hate–HYDRATE!

Don’t be afraid. It’s only love.

*If you want to know more about how this Venus Retrograde will affect you specifically and how it shows up in your chart, please contact me for a personal reading at HilaryB130@gmail.com*